Thursday, December 3, 2009

Maintaining God's Presence Through Memory

Here is a quote from Watchman Nee's book The Release of the Spirit,

'Two years after a certain brother trusted in the lord, he read “The Practice of the Presence of God” by Brother Lawrence. After reading it, he felt grieved at his failure to abide unceasingly in the presence of God like Brother Lawrence. At that time he had hourly appointments to pray with someone. Why? Well, the Bible says, “Pray unceasingly,” so they changed it to “Pray every hour.” Every time they heard the clock strike the hour, they would pray. They exerted their utmost effort to retreat into God because they felt they could not maintain themselves in the continuous presence of God. It was as if they had slipped away while working and thus needed to retreat quickly back to God. Or they had projected themselves out while studying, and now they must withdraw swiftly to God. Otherwise they would find themselves away the whole day. They prayed often spending whole days in prayer on the Lord’s day and half days on Saturday. Thus they continued for two or three years. Nevertheless, the trouble remained: in withdrawing they enjoyed God’s presence, but in going forth they lost it. Of course this is not their problem alone; such is the experience of many Christians. It indicates we are trying to maintain God’s presence by our memory. The sense of his presence fluctuates according to our memory. When we remember there is the consciousness of his presence; otherwise there is not. This is pure foolishness, for God’s presence is in the spirit, not the memory.'

He goes on to explain that this problem stems from the unbrokeness of the outward man. I have thought often of this statement since I reread it a few months ago. It seems to me that the idea of the breaking of the outer man relates to daily taking up our crosses and following Him. At times I have thought that taking up my cross daily meant to reaffirm my commitment to Him daily. This has been as simple as just acknowledging my past commitments and relationship. Over time it dilutes down to a tepid sort of, "Well we both know what this is about God so why don't we get this day started." And when it gets to that point it seems easy to neglect. But it seems that as I study and pray the true concept is more to intentionally put my desires for self aside and submit to His command, or to put it more bluntly, to die to self and commit myself to fulfilling His commandments. And are those commandments too difficult or too onerous? Well, yes they are if I have to try to maintain my commitment to those things by sheer willpower. The only way to rightly die to self and fulfill His commandments is to practice the presence of God finding both the ability to commit and fulfill in that proper spiritual state.

And what is His command, "A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another, even as I have loved you, that you also love one another." How many of our daily activities are motivated by the essence of this command? If this command motivated us we would find time to pray for one another, we would see our private walk impacting our brothers in the Lord both negatively and positively, we would be driven to our knees to find God's wisdom in our conduct and speech so that we would always be encouraging to one another and never a stumbling block.

I think if I could just keep typing the things that would flow naturally from us if we strove to truly die to self and serve God daily. They would flow from us like springs of living water springing up to eternal life. You can find that in John 4 I think. Give it some thought.



Friday, September 4, 2009

The Watch on the Beach

I have been reading and meditating on the gospel, being troubled by what I see as a watered down, miss the mark, cheap grace gospel. Of course, the question I have to ask is, 'If I am seeing things right, how have we (me included) managed to get it so wrong?" I look at the two predominant protestant constructs, Calvinism and Arminianism (TULIP/DCURA), and see both as flawed concepts. First, neither collection of ideas is taken directly from the teaching or writing of the men whose names are used to distinguish these hotly contested and opposing tenets of the faith. That is simply put and you can explore that fact on your own to see if it be true. But, secondly, they both seem to clash with the things of God. Here I don't mean just in scripture itself but in the very way God has revealed Himself to us in the lives of those recorded for us in scripture. I will take some time to see if I can give this idea some detail, but think of it this way for a start.

In proving the existence of God we will sometimes ask sceptics to consider the case of the 'Watch on the Beach.' The idea being that when we walk along a deserted beach and discover a functioning Swiss watch we immediately assume, without seeing more, that it had a maker. Whether this is a convincing arguement or not, think about the scene as we have described it. The beach is made of innumerable grains of sand; waves of energy that have traveled around the world tirelessly and rhythmicly trouble the waters at the shore; tides influenced by the orbiting moon climb up the beach and recede again like clockwork; and a place that can seem so barren is full of life! Need I go on (I refer you to the end of the book of Job for more detail). Here we truly see the hand of God, not the hand of man. And like the rather simplistic watch, so out of place laying on the sandy beach, the doctrines of Calvinism or Arminianism seem to me to represent more the hand of man than the hand of God.

So much has been invested in arguement over these teachings that its seems arrogant and presumptious to question them, but if they should be questioned they themselves might represent the very height of arrogance. May the Lord deliver us.

II Timothy 1:22Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. 23Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Which should I first seek first??

Mt 6:33 says to 'seek first His kingdom and His righteousness;' literally it is be seeking first the kingdom (of God) and the righteousness of Him. We touched on this verse in a recent bible study and I have gone back to it a number of times in the past weeks thinking about how to best 'make it mine.' The need to do this is necessary for me because I feel the Holy Spirit is working on me in this area. So after studying it and reading it over a number of times I was working over in my head how the seemingly two objects of our primary search are actually one. So we might translate this as 'seek first His righteous kingdom' or 'His kingdom of righteousness.' The absurdity of seeing our search as an absolutely primary one but with two objects hit me tonight when I asked myself 'which I should seek out first?'. Perhaps I could find a study mate to share the task. I will spend my time searching for the kingdom and not worry about righteousness and my buddy will do the opposite. Then we can compare notes and save ourselves each all the hassle of finding them both.

Throughout our Christian walk we must be seeking His kingdom which is characterized by righteousness. His imputed righteousness allows us the advantage of conducting our 'search' under the leading of the Holy Spirit, but the imputed righteousness does not free us from the need to be finding / experiencing / functioning in the Kingdom righteously.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Familiar Armor

I recall an experience early in my assignment as one of the CO’s Radio Telephone Operators (RTO) only weeks after graduating from Basic Training and my Advance Infantry Training. No longer recruits, we were regular army and I was assigned to Company A, 2nd of the 2nd, the Devil’s Deuce, one of the oldest units in US Armed Forces. The long and proud history of our unit was completely lost on those of us who had only recently been assigned; we could only feel how new everything was. Even the CO was new, having taken command only weeks before my arrival. Eager to get the feel of his new command the CO had orders issued for a forced march, full combat gear and weapons. I thought about our, at most, one hour of training on the field radio in Basic and wished I had paid more attention. Now I would be carrying one. I was sure I could set the frequency and turn it on but everything else was just a blur. After breakfast my partner and I began lining up to check out all of our equipment: gas mask, M-16, ammo magazines and radios. This would be my first foray into combat gear (LBE: load bearing equipment) since Basic, and I was quickly inundated with all the details of preparing for a little march around the brigade area, of all things. I struggled getting the web belt adjusted and the shoulder straps just right. Trying to put that canteen in just the right place, then filling it and realizing I hadn’t gotten it right yet. The chin strap on my helmet was too loose, but I had to figure out how to put the radio on the pack frame the supply sergeant had thrown over the counter along with the radio, 2 lb battery (with spare) and the CEOI; a one inch thick collection of call signs, authentication pads and codes. Long before I was ready the company was forming up and to head off for parts unknown. As the platoons of A company marched out of the company area, the CO, and we his RTOs, took up position behind the 2nd platoon and before the 3rd. I wasn’t the only rookie who marched off that day but I was so busy trying to keep everything together that I didn’t have time to notice anyone else.
We RTOs carried separate radios each set to a different frequency, one to communicate with the battalion ‘net’ and one for the company ‘net’ for inter-company communication. Each of the platoons also had an RTO so we could keep in contact. As we moved off the drill area and out between the barracks and the mess hall the radios seemed unnecessary since we could just as easily have called out to each of the platoon leaders and kept in touch very handily, but in only moments our formation stretched out in a very loose order of march and began taking the twists and turns necessary to get free of the Brigade area making the radios very necessary. As the CO began firing off messages to each of his platoons it became obvious that he depended on his RTOs to know the call sign assignments for every unit on the net that day and to be able to relay his messages correctly and quickly. This was immediately a problem since the call signs were hidden somewhere in a one inch thick CEOI which contained the call signs for every unit in the entire army along with codes and authentication pads. Trying to keep up with the march and flip thru the pages searching for call signs was not working, and we began to lag behind. The CO was not in the mood to ask everyone to slow down, so the three of us, two RTOs and the CO, were forced to stop completely and while the CO held my M-16, I finally found the page that contained our call signs. At this point the trailing portions of the 3rd platoon were coming even with us and we had to double time to return to our position in front of the 3rd and behind the 2nd. When we started our quick run, I immediately had difficulty. My M16 sling wasn’t adjusted correctly and I couldn’t keep it slung on my shoulder because of the radio pack I carried. My helmet liner and chin strap were both proving to be too loose and my 3 pounds of steel pot was shifting around precariously with every running step. While trying to keep my CEOI open to the appropriate spot and keep my M16 in place, I managed to dislodge my steel pot. As it fell I somehow managed to kick it, nearly pitching headfirst into the dirt. I had to give up on the CEOI if I was going to retrieve my helmet without dropping my weapon too. Once I had the helmet I had to sprint and caught up with the CO just as he settled in behind the 2nd platoon. It was now time to contact the 1st platoon that was completely out of sight, and I was less able to do that then when we first tried. Needless to say that march was a fiasco. We were reduced to contacting 1st platoon in the clear without authentication or call signs - clearly in violation of current doctrine. This introduction to my new job was an eye opener.
Our disastrous march occurred in January and our training continued over the coming months both in garrison and in the field. My RTO partner and I grew more and more proficient as we spent hours on the radios, keeping radio watch through the nights in the field, coding and decoding complex messages, keeping in touch with our platoons, the various battalion contacts, and even communicating with an Air Force jet which had flown up from Texas to support one of our exercises. The real test of our abilities came during our yearly ARTEP at the Yakima Firing Center. This was a weeklong exercise with umpires and judges following all our units and evaluating our company in every area of measurable proficiency.
One of our afternoons was dedicated to a live fire exercise. Our mortar units were positioned to fire live rounds and march their fire down the range which was located one ridge over and parallel to the ridge where our infantry units were to maneuver. It required complete control over all the units of the company or we could have our infantry units coming under fire from our own mortars although that would only happen on paper in this instance. The mortars began their preparatory barrage, and at the appointed time the infantry platoons began to maneuver as dictated in the battle plan. One unit would advance and take up a supporting position while another would move around their flank to the next supporting position. The judges and umpires would introduce variables as we maneuvered which would require the CO and his platoon leaders to adjust to simulated battle conditions. Our command group and our umpire moved down the ridge as well, keeping physical contact at all times with at least one of the platoons. At one point the CO instructed me to contact one of the platoons and have them move to the right and take up position as the reserve and allow our current reserve platoon to maneuver past them on their left to continue the attack. The platoon the CO was directing was at this time on the far left and it was obvious to me that he had misspoken. I tried to bring this to his attention but he was on the other radio adjusting the fire of the mortars so I radioed the correct platoon and gave them the instruction as the CO had intended. When things calmed down a little I tried to reorient the CO to the position of the units and he must of realized that he had gotten confused but there was no time to waste as the exercise was still active.
Throughout this exercise the three of us had to maintain contact with the battalion, our mortar units and the individual units. Whenever we maneuvered, we had to take up positions appropriate to the simulated battlefield conditions with our weapons at the ready and our attention directed to the security of ourselves and the CO as well as maintaining the communications. I can distinctly remember sharing my canteen with the CO when we had finished a quick movement while he held a radio receiver to each ear. Their were no helmets rolling down the hill, no M16s lost in the scramble from position to position. Things had changed. Our equipment had become a part of us. We were wearing familiar armor.
When the cease fire was called and the range was safe, the units formed up to move out. As we watched this process unfold we were approached by our umpire. It was protocol for the umpires to hold their critique for their formal reports so it was surprising to see our umpire approach with the obvious purpose of addressing Capt. Carley our CO. He asked if the CO was aware that he had lost track of his platoons during the exercise. The CO was quick to admit that he had. The umpire then went on to explain how I had prevented disaster by relaying the instructions he intended rather than those he had given. All our training had paid off. We had become a well oiled machine, as much as that could be said of a peacetime unit on a training exercise out in the barren expanse of eastern Washington.
When I read Ephesians 6 on the armor of God, I think back to my experience with the modern day equipment of the soldier and I can’t help but think there is a parallel. Paul links each piece of armor or equipment to a point of theology that deserves intense study individually. Topics like salvation, faith, righteousness are high and lofty subjects. When we have studied those subjects seriously, we have only begun to put on the armor. The issue then is how do we march (walk) and/or fight in the armor. More than knowledge we need wisdom that allows us to live our daily lives, to walk the walk in such a way that we aren’t constantly hitching up the belt of truth, and we don’t end up kicking the helmet of salvation around in the dust, or have to set aside the shield of faith or the sword of the spirit so we can tighten the laces on our feet shod for the preparation of the gospel of peace. It is not as if learning definitions for theological terms or becoming conversant in doctrinal issues automatically transforms our day to day walk. In Romans 12:2 we are encouraged to “be transformed by the renewing of (our) minds.” I think a renewed mind is less about learning doctrine and more about learning to walk. We are encouraged to “be transformed” in Romans 12:2 so we can fulfill the instruction of Romans 12:1 where we are beseeched to “present our bodies a living (walking, breathing, daily) sacrifice, holy (set apart day after day from dawn to dark), acceptable to God, which is (our) reasonable service (walked out day after day like morning and evening chores on the farm or the morning and evening sacrifices in the temple).” It seems that the body must realize that this more mundane reality, the day to day walk of the Christian, needs to be practically addressed and given equal time and resources if the church is to grow strong. I have come to feel comfortable with the statement that it’s more how you walk than how you believe. Or, to put it another way, it is more how you march or fight than how your armor is polished.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Paul's Stance on Assurance

I Cor 4:1-5 '1Let a man regard us in this manner, as servants of Christ and stewards of the mysteries of God. 2In this case, moreover, it is required of stewards that one be found trustworthy. 3But to me it is a very small thing that I may be examined by you, or by any human court; in fact, I do not even examine myself. 4For I am conscious of nothing against myself, yet I am not by this acquitted; but the one who examines me is the Lord. 5Therefore do not go on passing judgment before the time, but wait until the Lord comes who will both bring to light the things hidden in the darkness and disclose the motives of men's hearts; and then each man's praise will come to him from God.'

Paul is not one known for a feeble mind, unable to follow a logical argument to its conclusion. Here, though, he doesn't present an complex argument for why he knows he is one of the chosen, rather he appropriately submits even his ASSURANCE to God, whose judgement will be revealed when '...the Lord comes who will both bring to light the things hidden in the darkness and disclose the motives of men's hearts.'

We might learn something here. When Paul wants to encourage his brothers in their assurance he gives them one simple test. II Cor 13:5 'Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves. Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is in you—unless, of course, you fail the test?' No long involved series of theological propositions, just a relationship check.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Theological Reality Dose II

Someone might ask me if I consider myself saved. I would say that I am confident that I am being saved and I would heartily echo Paul's words in Romans "we are closer to salvation today than when we first believed." Also in Romans 8 Paul says that "Hope saves us, but hope that is realized is not hope" implying that however tangible the things of God are to us in this present day, they point to the reality of the promise of salvation which has been secured for us by the Christ. In Romans 5 Paul says that "having been justified...we exult in the hope of the glory of God." That is salvation! Immediately he adds that "we rejoice in our tribulations because they bring perseverance which produces proven character which produces (here it is again) hope." So the hope that propels us toward our future salvation is strengthened by our 'proven character,' or you might say our good works. Faith and hope then are strengthened in an environment of righteous living. So I can't be justified by my works but I might be saved by works if that is the only medium for the establishment and growth of true faith. Did James say something like this?

Monday, December 22, 2008

A Dose of Theological Reality

Charles Ladd in his A Theology of the New Testament says “Salvation is primarily an eschatological gift.”(73) Today the church's paradigm for salvation assumes that salvation is primarily a present gift. This is a dangerous confusion. In our service Sunday the scripture passage read during the service was from 1 Peter. As this passage was read I was impressed again just how the NT writers held to the belief that their salvation was significantly a future event where we would 'obtain an inheritance which is imperishable and undefiled and will not fade away, reserved in heaven.' (v1:4) We are 'born again' now, but 'to a living hope' (v1:3) 'protected by the power of God through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.' (v1:5) the 'proof of (our) faith...may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the (future) revelation of Jesus Christ;' (v1:7) 'obtaining as the outcome of (the process/proving of) your faith the (future) salvation of your souls' (v1:9).

And given the futureness of our salvation we are challenged to 'obey Jesus Christ' because 'we are chosen according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, by the sanctifying work of the Spirit' (v1:1,2) 'As obedient children, do not be conformed to the former lusts which were yours in your ignorance, but like the Holy One who called you, be holy yourselves also in all your behavior; because it is written, "You shall be holy, for I am holy"' (v1:14-16) And 'if you address as Father the One who impartially judges according to each man's work, conduct yourselves in fear during the time of your stay upon earth.' (v1:17) We are to 'long for the pure milk of the word, that by it (we) may grow in respect to salvation, (having) tasted the kindness of the Lord.' (2:2,3)

These passages in 1 Peter are not at all unique in the NT. We all need to examine our thinking on this subject and take care to not assume we are in a position that the very Apostles refused to claim for themselves.